Missing my baby today. A week ago right now I found out she was gone and my world was turned upside down. Every day has been a blur of tears anger and emptiness. I dint know how to ever recover or if I even want to. Terra was my dream miracle baby. my friends keep trying to contact me to help they say but I can't bare to talk to them with their children and families. I find myself really hateful towards the people telling me its gods plan or may god comfort me through this hard time. I wish I could just trade my life for hers. I can't stand to be awake or asleep. It's just one nightmare after the other. Times both flying by and at a standstill