vicadin and weed and feeling better. burned the hell out my arm last night cuz i was flipin the fuck out. dad pulled some shit he hadn't in years and i couldnt handle it. i use to think that crap i remberd was just bad dreams or some kinda fucked up stuff that wasnt real. maybe that why hes calledme fag for years. dont give a fuck. got some viacdins and oxycodone outa it. feel fuzzy and floaty. i need stay loaded all time and big smiles and alls well and dont askme whats wrong cuz i wont ever say cant say. dam no wonder mom hates me cuz he can make me cum but she cant. wtf? needa oxy