I haven't written a meaningful journal entry in some time.  I'm going through yet another adjustment in this road... trying not to think too much... but it really doesn't work to numb one's self up either because then its almost as if we're already dead...  so many ways to try to escape....  but I'm healthy enough to realize I don't want this emptiness so I'm still trying... still kicking... hoping perhaps to churn up a block of butter.....  I hope yall have been well... I will be around a bit and I hope I haven't offended so many by my absence that I find no one to talk to... ah well I must do the best I can and move on..... I truly do hope you're having a day blessed with peaceful memories.