First of all... I feel better now that I wrote about my problem below... but I still wanted to share it for other people who have felt what I'm talking about.... I just want people to know me before they decide to judge me... don't we all...  <>Richard has broken bones in both feet.  He broke one bone in his right foot... and two bones in his left foot... they're probably going to operate and put in pins... We'll find out more Monday... And the folks at the hospital act like I have been beating him... He's a fragile diabetic... His sugar went low... I wasn't even with him and somehow he fell over his own feet... Honestly at first I was amused at the doctor that was giving me the hard looks... but the more I thought about it the madder I get... so maybe I'll just go whup hell out of Richard... OMG... I am not a violent person... I hate violence... and I'm really torn between laughing and screaming... GRRRRRR that's about as violent as I get.... But this may change... I'm really aggravated... To be honest I think its because I'm a big woman and Richard is a small man... but big doesn't automatically translate to bully... Fact is I always cry for people when somebody hurts them... I'm too damn soft hearted for my own good..... Oh well... I guess I'll just have to live with it but I do hate people assuming they "know" me by my size... Inside I'm like 5'5".... I'm tiny and ultra feminine.... I like musicals and love stories to watch... don't care to read love stories much... Books I do prefer drama... and murder and mayhem... LOL     I wish I could explain how it is to feel as soft and feminine as the littlest most petite southern belle ever.. but the world always thinks I'm tough... I wish I was as tough as they think.... course I'd probably be in prison for murder... I've let so many people jack me over... It ain't even funny...  That's why these last few years as I've got older and gotten more and more of a kiss my ass attitude I've actually been glad... but it got me today... I need to go outside and do my Sam Kinnison impression.... Ah well... on with the show.... Hugs Elissa

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Oh I soooooo know what you mean about all of this...people think that I will whoop their ass all the time because of my size, and yes, I do mouth quiet a bit, but I really am a chicken shit and a small lil ol southern belle deep down that would crack and break if someone hit me! ha...I feel skinny, I feel soft but because I am not skinny, people think I carry mulitple cans of whoop ass on me....not that I can\'t go find a can and whoop ass with my tongue, but I truly have to be pushed to open that can. Love you and do Sam all day long, go to that doctor talking like Sam and see what happens ! LOL....no, wait, he may lock you up in a rubber room, so don\'t do that, I NEED you ! :o) Hugs, Kat
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I am so sorry about Richard\'s fall! I have a similar problem, or did have, in that I always looked much younger than my age. Got no respect and was talked down to very often. Folks assumed that I was my husband\'s daughter, my children\'s sister and at times I had to argue that I was old enough to even register them for school, etc... Inside I am a mighty force to reckon with, not a little girl, though I can be quite a gentle spirit as well. It\'s all very frustrating when people judge and make assumptions. Hugs
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Elissa,
I am not sure why you are internalizing all this , did someone accuse you of something?
Of course big does not translate into bully and you sound like a sweet woman so why would someone think you were abusing Richard? Hugs, Inga.
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Hi, I can see how that might get you upset from the Hospitals reaction, but untill they officially accuse, I would not let it get to you that much. Its Awful about Richards Injury, Pins don\'t sound like fun, Lets hope they can fix it another way,.. it\'s easy for one to hurt there feet, Im surprized I have not yet with all the weight they need to support each day, we all take our feet for granted I think and they do alot. Hmm Maybe I should of became a foot doctor the way Im talking, but honest it\'s amazing.. I hope he gets to feeling better soon and heals quick, and You keep your chin up.. :)
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Awww poor guy. Hope he heals quickt!
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I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN I TO HAVE A BATTLE WITH MY WEIGHT I AM PRAYING FOR YOU HUGS!!!!!!!!!LOVE JODY