Well I just learned something... I felt fairly much ok earlier... but then a family problem slaps me in the face... and suddenly everything is crappy... and I wish Cara was here so I could go somewhere with her and just talk and cry... and its not fair because I was supposed to mother her... but sometimes she did mother me... back before she got so lost... she wanted to "fix" things for the people she loved and I didn't even realize how much I depended on her until she wasn't there anymore... I began to realize it when my mama was dying... by then Cara was in bad trouble... and she couldn't be there for herself much less for me... so I was trying to help her and deal with mama dying... but at least I had hope that my daughter and my best friend would come back... now there's no hope... Its just how it is...
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I am feeling your pain. Our children being gone leaves such a void in our lifes.I miss being able to pick up the phone and just ask my sons advice or a simple how\'s it going. i also did not realize how much I depended on my son, i always felt he depended on me ,when in actuality i needed him more then he needed me.Hugs, Inga
You are in my thought and prayers. I wish the same thing, but you have all of us, lean on us. hugs karen
I am so very sorry, (((Elissa))). Their absence is so huge and overwhelming. Know that you are in my thoughts and you are loved.
{{{hugs}}} sweetie! i\'m so sorry. wish i could say or do something that would help. just know that we are here and this is a place you can come to .... cry and vent. love you! ~ charlayne