When it rains it pours... not very original... but damn did we have to find out how true it was all at once... I think a lot of the deaths we faced among our loved ones for those of us with a few extra years was a product of our own aging... and inevitable... but how do we deal with the death of our children... one day at a time... sometimes... one lousy day at a time... part of how lousy it is or isn't... is a product of our work... I have to work sometimes to get out of the dumps... sometimes I have to work to convince myself its worth bothering to work to get out of the dumps... You got to admit... that hopefully made you laugh as it did me... certainly it was twisted... I left it even if it doesn't sound smooth etc... I hoped it would make you smile a little... Its a shame when we have to think about whether its ok to smile or not..... Grrrrrrrr
No I'm not in a terrible mood... but I've been better.....
No I'm not in a terrible mood... but I've been better.....
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oh yeah, sometimes I have to work to convince myself it\'s worth bothering to work to get out of the dumps. :) I totally get that! (((love you)))
Once again you are right, that is how many times now (lol)? We all do have to work @ feeling better it is hard sometimes .The hardest part for me is when I think I have been doing ok for a few days all of a sudden it hits me. This morning I am sitting around drinking my coffee getting mentally prepared for work and all of a sudden my son pops in my head and i realize he will never come back so I can touch him, to talk to him...I start crying and all I think about @ that moment is \" damn I hope I can pull myself together so I can go to work\". It took a while but I kept distracting myself so that I wouldn\'t have a major melt-down.
I feel it is ok to smile, to laugh to be silly...i do all those things and i don\'t feel one bit guilty.
Have a great weekend. Hugs, Inga
been there and done that and have the t-shirt for lousy. just haven\'t gotten rid of it yet. damn! love you! ~ charlayne