Once again... copied something I wrote in someone's journal... after I decided I wanted to share it with all of you....<>It definitely doesn't seem fair... that we love so much and can't have them with us here and now... Somehow we have to hang on to what is good though... the memories... until its our time and we run to meet them... my lips pull up in a smile just thinking of running to meet Cara... her arms are open and she's smiling and we're both crying and laughing and we're never going to shut up we have so much to tell each other... yes Diana its all in my mind... but I can really see it and I wish you could have seen how fast I was typing as my thoughts of that first joyful moment flashed through my mind... I can still see and feel Cara... It is going to be ok... She told me so and I believe her...  Another thought... I don't know if or how long my better frame of mind will last... I'm going to try and accept and foster it... You may have thought my last entry was one of sadness... not so... I just often find as I write that I'm speaking to Cara as much or sometimes even more than to you... Its not rude... She is I confess often on my mind...  and so sometimes I'll just switch in mid sentence to talking to Cara... I guess I'm lucky my mind is so active... I really could see Cara running to meet me... I see her right now... just smiling... she knows we will be together... and she's proud of me that at this moment... I'm getting the messages she's been working so hard to send me...  My faith is strong... and I want to share it to help you... Yes... I'll get weak... but for this moment... I'm doing ok... Hugs Elissa