In reading your previous journal, I felt a need to share this. I found it in The Compassionate Friends newsletter. In MN they are shutting down mental hospitals and the one my son was at said they could no longer do anything for him so they released him. One doctor went so far as to say Jon was not mentally ill. I knew better but I could not argue...cuz you just can\'t argue with ...stupid. You just need to move away and wonder!! Anyway, my son committed suicide due to his mental illness...he gave up...here is what I read and re-read and I hope it brings you some form of comfort.
A Battlefield
By Victor M. Parachin
Reprinted from Bereavement Magazine
5125 North Union Boulevard., Suite #4
Colorado Springs, CO 80918
A death by any one of the many self-destructive ways triggers great amounts of anger and guilt. However, some of those feelings can be balanced by struggling to see that the death was not so much a deliberate, hostile act, but a gesture of utter hopelessness and despair.
Reminders that the person was so driven by emotional whirlwinds that it was impossible to sense any ray of hope can temper, considerably, the emotional impact of a self-destructive death.
One of the best responses to such a death that I have ever heard came through a sermon delivered by the pastor of a young man who recently had died a self-destructive death.
With great eloquence, his pastor was able to convey tremendous hope through these words:
\"Our friend died on his own battlefield. He was killed in action fighting a civil war.
He fought against adversaries that were as real to him as his casket is real to us. They were powerful adversaries. They took toll of his energies and endurance.
For one thing--he has won our admiration--because even if he lost the war, we give him credit for his bravery on the battlefield. They exhausted the last vestiges of his courage and only God knows what this child of his suffered in the silent skirmishes that took place in his soul. But our consolation is that God does know, and understands!\"
Elissa,
My love and prayers are always with you. You relax today and when you are ready, you\'ll be back here to enlighten us and give to each other.
Love,
Betty
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Snuggle in sweetie with a good book, a cup of coffee, and take care of you...I love you! Hugs, Kat
I agree with Jonskat!!! 100%
There are days when snuggling in is all we can do...know that you are loved ((((Elissa)))). Take good care of you.
In reading your previous journal, I felt a need to share this. I found it in The Compassionate Friends newsletter. In MN they are shutting down mental hospitals and the one my son was at said they could no longer do anything for him so they released him. One doctor went so far as to say Jon was not mentally ill. I knew better but I could not argue...cuz you just can\'t argue with ...stupid. You just need to move away and wonder!! Anyway, my son committed suicide due to his mental illness...he gave up...here is what I read and re-read and I hope it brings you some form of comfort.
A Battlefield
By Victor M. Parachin
Reprinted from Bereavement Magazine
5125 North Union Boulevard., Suite #4
Colorado Springs, CO 80918
A death by any one of the many self-destructive ways triggers great amounts of anger and guilt. However, some of those feelings can be balanced by struggling to see that the death was not so much a deliberate, hostile act, but a gesture of utter hopelessness and despair.
Reminders that the person was so driven by emotional whirlwinds that it was impossible to sense any ray of hope can temper, considerably, the emotional impact of a self-destructive death.
One of the best responses to such a death that I have ever heard came through a sermon delivered by the pastor of a young man who recently had died a self-destructive death.
With great eloquence, his pastor was able to convey tremendous hope through these words:
\"Our friend died on his own battlefield. He was killed in action fighting a civil war.
He fought against adversaries that were as real to him as his casket is real to us. They were powerful adversaries. They took toll of his energies and endurance.
For one thing--he has won our admiration--because even if he lost the war, we give him credit for his bravery on the battlefield. They exhausted the last vestiges of his courage and only God knows what this child of his suffered in the silent skirmishes that took place in his soul. But our consolation is that God does know, and understands!\"
Elissa,
My love and prayers are always with you. You relax today and when you are ready, you\'ll be back here to enlighten us and give to each other.
Love,
Betty