One minute I feel hopeful... sometimes even pretty good... and then something or nothing... who knows... and I'm fighting to breathe... I'm tired...  my computer isn't working so hot... its fine at the moment... but I don't know when it will quit... so it I'm not around perhaps it quit... Yall hang on... Hugs Elissa

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Elissa do you have a lot of pictures or music on your system? If so burn them onto CD and erase them from your drive. Then go to help and find out how to clean out your cookies. In Internet you go to tools and options then delete cookies and temp files. If I can think up anything else I\'ll write.
Cara is probably run ragged with Timmy and Molly so she hasn\'t visited. I imagine they will be showing up soon as Adam\'s rose buse just bloomed again 5 more roses and 2 buds. HMMMM. That usually means Katie is due for something and then everyone else shows up. Honestly I think they are all connected at the hip. Love Ya Kathy
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((((Elissa))))) One moment at a time...each moment brings with it its own emotion. It\'s a bumpy ride and it just plain wears ya out. Take good care of yourself and hold on tight. Love you.
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Me too Elissa. I\'m up, I\'m down, I\'m standing on my head....it\'s crazy the emotional swings with or without any notice at all. Grief is so very exhausting. Keep hanging on and I will too. We\'ll survive the craziness somehow.
Living to make Kala proud,
Teri
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Take care of yourself! Your in my prayers.
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I DON\'T ENJOY THE ROLLER COASTER RIDE EITHER, SOMETIMES I EVEN FORGET TO KEEP MY HANDS AND FEET IN AT ALL TIMES. I HAVEN\'T LOST A LIMB YET BUT I SURE HAVE SOME NASTY BRUISES FROM RIDING ON THIS GRIEF ROLLER COASTER. I KEEP HOPING SOMEDAY THAT CARNI WILL STOP THIS THING AND LET ME OFF, I\'VE BEEN ON IT FOR A YEAR NOW AND I SWEAR I\'M GONNA PUKE....EVERY TIME THE COASTER PASSES BY HIM I SCREAM \"LET ME OFF OF THIS THING!\" BUT I SWEAR HE\'S DEAF OR SOMETHING BECAUSE HE JUST LOOKS AT ME AND SMILES, IF I EVER GET OFF THIS THING I\'M GONNA KICK HIM IN THE SHIN... YUP THAT\'S WHAT I\'M GONNA DO... KICK HIM IN THE SHIN AND THEN GIVE HIM A PACK OF Q-TIPS... LOVE YOU, *K
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Elissa, I know exactly how you feel. Lots of hugs, Jake\'s mom, Kathy
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Elissa, I\'m sending you hugs from the bottom of my heart. I hope that someday you\'ll find the peace of mind so strong it will move a mountain. Sending my love to you.
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hi elissa, sorry to hear you not doing good today. i hope u get ur pc running well soon.
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I hope it doesn\'t break!! I will miss you. AND I don\'t want you to be limited by NOT having the option of computer.