I actually wrote that as part of a song a million years ago... but it was a love song... the line about wish you...
it was originally I wish that you were here to hold me in your arms once more... it fit in better like that... but it didn't sound so right talking about my child... I wish I could be more comfortable sometimes... Cara could be so cool... she'd come plop herself down in my lap and say "hold me" I couldn't just relax and be natural like she could and gradually she stopped being like that... why are we uncomfortable with our children... I love her so much... I'd give anything to be able to hold her... she used to lay down with me and we'd watch TV... but then life is real life is earnest... oh gosh please people I don't care how real and ernest life is... nothing matters not one bit but showing love... living breathing loving the whole world.... and if we love those who are a part of our lives... that's normal...