do you ever want to write all the anger that's in you... all the pain... the fear... the sadness...

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YES!!!!! I REALLY DO TRY TO, BECAUSE IT DOES HELP!!!!! (((((HUGS)))))
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YES nearly every minute of every day! I think the things I would like to write and then sit down to write and it all goes away... But it still helps.
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Yes, mostly the pain and sadness. I haven\'t been to much in to anger and I had a fear of death since I am a little girl. I don\'t seem to have that fear anymore. I talk to God and Jake alot at night. That seems to help. Lots of hugs, Jake\'s mom, Kathy
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Yes I do but if any one read them they would think I was crazy, except everyone here. I fear the pain will never go away, I fear the future, the sadness has become a part of me. Shannon and Joey were going to move to North Carolina with us in two years. Shannon and I loved the mountains so much. She was born here in Florida and never liked the weather(I can\'t stand Florida) I came here as a teen with my family, then had my own family and before I knew it I was stuck here. Now we have to stay because this is where Joey is. His daddy is a great person and he has a home and a good job here. I just can not ever imagine leaving Joey. He is with us every weekend, I am very grateful his father lets him come over so much. My sister pointed out that as he gets older he won\'t want to come over so much, she thought she was being helpful, but honestly the first thing that came into my mind was, when he does not need me anymore, then I will kill myself. I don\'t say these things out loud, but I do think them. Shannon was supposed to be with me always, she always joked about changing my diapers one day. I see myself growing old alone. Sorry,this was more than just a comment. I know you don\'t mind, you are very thoughtful, I\'ll bet you are a good friend.
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Well, Elissa,
I generally do that sort of journalling and writing on here, esp to you. So, yes, I wish we all could just \"let it out\" and get it over with, but I believe that God has a plan for all of us having to go through all of this.
Take care.
Love, Betty