This is one of those days... I woke up again thinking I'd go call mama... can't do it... missing Cara's earthly presence... not going to happen... went to my counselor this morning... 2 hour session... I was as exhausted as if I'd worked all day... when ever you go into therapy even though you've been through years of friggin therapy... they want the bio... I'm so tired of repeating the bs... Susan is really wonderful but I was a bit impatient today... she kept telling me we were nearly done... just one more question... finally I said... "I thought you said just one more question"... she's kind of cool... she laughed and said I had found out her ugly secret... she lied... so I had to laugh...

You know how it is... can't sleep well, can't stop crying... start thinking you're better and find out maybe not so much... its ok... I'll just cry and try to comfort myself with memories... And writing letters to friends here at daily strength... Thanks Yall Love You Elissa