I know I advised you not to read my journal entry for today... but I'm glad you did... your words are a great comfort to me... Sandart your sharing that story... its wonderful... and kind of spooky... My husband and I had bought some tapestry placemats at the church Octoberfest... there were only 3 but I bought them anyway because I liked them so much... I'd put them aside until I could find another one at least similar... Tonight we were trying to do a bit of cleaning up and my husband got the three out and put them on the table... I really like them... angels mean a lot to all of us... as I had mentioned once I (probably like many other moms) used to sing that song to Cara... You are my special angel... oh she is so much my special angel... and it does comfort me to think that her angels came and removed her fear, and pain when I could not... sometimes we're blessed with just the words someone needs to hear... I thank you so very very much.

Please don't think I don't appreciate the comments that Mari and Janine made... I do... and Janine I can't tell you how many times I've read people's entries and wrote nothing because I couldn't think what to say... Most of all I appreciate all of you being here for me... I'm doing better and its the support of all my friends here that I believe help me the most... That's selfish... I don't mean to negate the love and comfort of my friends and family... but I feel so responsible for bringing them down with my pain I can't lean on them like I do on yall...

Love Yall A Lot Elissa