Tonight I decided to put trick or treat bags of candy for the trick or treaters for this saturday.  It is somthing that I have had fun doing since we have bought our home.  For some reason this year it dawns on me that I am probably not going to get the chance to take my own child trick or treating.  It's not that I havent thought of it before but for some reason it has kind of hit me hard tonight.  The holidays are difficult for me and now I am realizing they are right around the corner.