I went to therapy last night, I told her about my problems with my mother and my daughter.  She suggests that I write my mother another email and explaining to her about the letters that were kept from me, that she wrote.  My husband felt that I was too sick for me to read letters that she sent me when I was first diagnosed with depression and PTSD.  This could be some of the problems why we do not communicate.  She could think that I ignored her ten years ago.  It is worth a shot.  The therapist also thinks that I should explain to her that there are things going on in my marriage, such as emotional abuse, isolation.  If my husband knew I was trying to communicate with my family he would be bullshit.  I am thinking of giving the email a try.  How do I know if I don't give it a try?  Maybe she was reaching out ten years ago?  The reason this all started was because I disclosed that I was sexually abused by my father's brother.  Everything fell apart after that,  I feel if I kept my mouth shut none of this would of ever happened, but the therapist said that it would of been at my expense, and I would have had to suffer in silence.  I guess she is right, but I would have had my family still.  I guess I would have had to choose.  If I persue this I realize I could get hurt, and that is what  I am afraid of.  My mother could just tell me to go to hell, it is a big chance.  I am sick of being isolated.  I have one friend that I can call and go out with I need to have someone else that I can call apon, someone else that I can go out with, talk to, I want that to be my mother and family.