My mother emailed me back today, she told me that the reason she didn'nt call me back on Mother's day was that she got home very late and she was very tired.  That was a really shitty and lame excuse.  I feel like she doesn't even give a shit about me as usual.  Why do I always get my hopes up that she will actually do something to make me happy.  I just wanted to wish her a happy mother's day, and maybe spend a little time with her.  I wanted to try and get a relationship back with her.  She couldn't even give me the time of day.  Maybe there is something  wrong with me.  I feel like a reject.  What did I do to deserve this?  Then she has the balls to invite me over for the fourth of july for a cookout.  I will go because I crave her attention.  I know it is wrong.  I wish I wasn't so stupid, and so vulnerable.  I really need someone to talk to.  I don't have therapy until Wednesday.  I can't talk to my husband he doesn't like my family, he bad mouths them any chance he gets.  He'd flip if he knew I had contact with my mother.  Oh why did I call her.  I will never do that again,  I put myself in a bad position.