I am having a tough day today.  I want to cut very badly, I am keeping myself from doing it so I am doing soming right.  I had a fight with my daughter she is being mean to me again.  I asked her not to get chip crumbs on the floor that I just vaccuumed and she said I would get over it.  I told her she doesn't help with the cleaning so she needs to be careful about leaving a mess.  She told me to cry me a river.  I told her not to talk to me like that, and her response was that she was going to live with her grandmother, she was going to call her right then and ask her.  I don't know why I even bother to clean my house, it doesn't look like I even do anything in it after five minutes.  I feel so crappy.  I have been having flashbacks today also.  I can't even look in the mirror, I hate myself that much today.  I need to talk to my therapist, but I don't have therapy until tommorow.  Everyone have a good night.