Therapy went okay today.  I still blame myself for alot of the problems that go wrong in my family.  My therapist tells me that this is where the problem lies.  I need to stop blaming myself for things that are not my fault.  As long I blame myself for these things I am not going to get better.  I know I need to work on this.  I find it easier to take the blame for everything than to place the blame on other people.  I am always calling myself an idiot, or stupid for doing something wrong or silly.  That is what I am used to doing, it is going to take work to change this pattern.  I am willing to work on changing this.  I am a work in progress.  So please bear with me as I go through some major overhauls.  Everyone have a great night.