Today I feel better than I did yesterday.  I talked to someone on here and she made me feel much better about myself, thank you, (you know who are).  I  went to marriage counseling last night, and my husband mentioned that he was worried that I wanted a divorce and I was honest and said that I was thinking about it.  So he is not living in denial anymore.  I think I am finally making some headway.  We both agreed that we need to work on our relationship more on the outside of counseling.  We don't discuss anything outside of the therapy session during the week, so it is not helping us, for me it is because I am afraid it will cause an arguement and I am afraid of arguing with him.  So I will try this week to discuss issues with him.