I spoke up at marriage counseling last night, I got alot off my chest. My husband denies alot of things that he has said, or he says he doesn't remember saying things he has said. I told the marriage counselor that I am afraid to bring up things to discuss, because I am afraid of getting into a heated argument everytime I try to discuss anything with him, then I end up hearing I am making him out to be the bad guy, just blame him for everything. Which turns the blame on me as usual. I still think that he is in denial about the whole thing. I have to go and meet my son's new therapist today. I have to give her a history of my son. My husband is not too happy about my kids going for therapy, but I feel that they need to go. There is too much going on at home between my illness and what is going on between my husband and I. They need someone to talk to. My daughter saw me take the pills that I tried to commit suicide with and still feels very angry at me, I think she would benefit from being able to talk about it. Her and I have talked about it, but having someone else to talk about it with would be a good thing for her. I think I will continue to write things down that I want to discuss in therapy sessions, it really seems to help me remember things, it makes for a productive session. Everyone have a good rest of the day.