I had a good day at work today. I went to therapy at 1:30 today, boy was I glad my therapist was back from vacation, I had a anxiety ridden week last week without her, and I told her that. I had a great therapy session, we talked alot about my relationship with my husband. As usual I put myself at fault for our problems. She pointed out to me that I always do this, and that I need to look at the big picture instead of blaming myself for everything. She is right I know that. I can't blame myself for everything, the relationship goes two ways, it just isn't working and I know it, I just want to be able to fix it, and I can't. I just keep wishing that marriage counseling will miraculously start working and everything will get better between us. I think the marriage is over my head is just not ready to accept it yet. So I will wait a little longer until my heart can accept it.