I had a good day,but a horrible night, I had it out with my husband. We finally talked about our marriage counseling session we had on Monday. All we did was argue back and forth we really got nowhere. He just said that he doesn't understand my illness, and that I should be better by now, and that he feels that I am not getting better. My therapist and I both think I have made great strides in getting better. Every time I get built up my husband tears me down, he says he is protecting me because I am helpless. I told him I don't need to be protected I can stand on my own two feet. I got in my car and drove for an hour, called my therapist on my cell phone very upset, she calmed me down, talked me out of cutting. I hate to call her but I need some kind of support when things like this happen to me, she is my lifeline. She is on vacation next week, I don't know what I am going to do without her for a whole week, I guess I will be okay. I rely on her too much I think. I need some sleep tonight didn't get much last night, I finally fell asleep at 3 and got up at 5:30. I am too worked up to sleep.