Today I feel better, I have therapy later on today and I have a lot to talk about, I had a really bad day yesterday, I wanted to hurt myself, but I called a friend and talked it out. I called my therapist but I could not get a hold of her. I was alone in my house and I had a lot of pills at my disposal. I hate when I feel like that, but the flashbacks were very intense, and I was losing touch with reality, I just felt like running away from everybody. I know that I should of told my husband before he left the house in the morning and maybe he would of stayed home with me, but I felt bad that he would have to stay home with me, and that he does'nt understand what I am going through. This website really seems to be helping me, I can reach out to other people in the same situation that I am in and get some support. I don't feel so alone anymore. The flashbacks are still here today but I can deal with them a little better today, and life seems a little brighter today for me. Everyone have a good day.

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Good for you. It is difficult, I know. So many times I wished I could just drive and crash my car, or take the multitude of pills I have at my disposal, but I think of my niece and her sons. This sight in the last week has helped me so much, I don\'t feel so alone in this situation and I think of all the people out there who are worse, who hug me, who encourage me, and it brightens my day. They understand me! Finally, someone can relate to me. Keep writing in your journal, putting emotions and traumas in writing seems to help, I have not had as many nightmares since I started this sight. Hugs to you.
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This is the best place to put these feelings into words. We\'re all in this together. I\'m pullin for ya.