Today I feel better, I have therapy later on today and I have a lot to talk about, I had a really bad day yesterday, I wanted to hurt myself, but I called a friend and talked it out. I called my therapist but I could not get a hold of her. I was alone in my house and I had a lot of pills at my disposal. I hate when I feel like that, but the flashbacks were very intense, and I was losing touch with reality, I just felt like running away from everybody. I know that I should of told my husband before he left the house in the morning and maybe he would of stayed home with me, but I felt bad that he would have to stay home with me, and that he does'nt understand what I am going through. This website really seems to be helping me, I can reach out to other people in the same situation that I am in and get some support. I don't feel so alone anymore. The flashbacks are still here today but I can deal with them a little better today, and life seems a little brighter today for me. Everyone have a good day.