Just rambling

Wish things were better, the anxiety medicine that the doctor put me on had some adverse side effects so had to quit taking it. Called the doctors office to let them know but they had to leave a message for the doctor so I don't know what will happen. Get to go see the trauma therapist Tuesday the 8th, kinda and kinda not looking forward to it but I know it's needed. Something has to be done, I can't keep going on like this. Somethings gotta give or I may not be here much longer.
As for the fibro pain, what can I say, it's always there but I just have to keep pushing through and cry silently. Been exercising and walking to try to keep my strength up but I don't feel like its doing much, but I just keep trying. That's all I can do, just try.
Now this coming week, I'm having a colonoscopy and that scares me too. I don't know if I'm ready for any type of bad results, but if so, so be it.
I'm just soo tired of all of the pain and the crap that goes along with depression, fibromyalgia and other things. it's just soo not worth it sometimes.
Guess that's all for now.