Depression
Here I am again rambling about my life and the sadness that I feel all of the time. Many days lately I have dearly wished that I wouldn't wake up in the morning or pray at night that the Lord would go ahead and take me. Give me relief from the sadness that I feel everyday of my life. Yes, I put on a smile and make like all is right in my world but to tell the truth, it's not. I really have no reason to feel this way but for some reason I do. I have a wonderful life but I just don't feel it. No one in my family understands why i feel like this, jeez, I don't even understand why I feel like this. I wish I knew why. I hate feeling this way, its just very discouraging. What else can I do other than read, walk my dog, listen to music that makes me fairly happy, cook. I guess I'm just lost.
Hopefully my doctor will see that I need an anti-depressant and put me on one especially to go along with the anxiety medicine that he has already put me on. I know I need something....
Just rambling on again, and sorry for the sob story.
Hopefully my doctor will see that I need an anti-depressant and put me on one especially to go along with the anxiety medicine that he has already put me on. I know I need something....
Just rambling on again, and sorry for the sob story.
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I guess this could go for both depression and fibro.....been a long day with pain, IBS acting up, feeling like i need duck tape to keep my joints together. Just been one of those days in which I really wish that I had not woken up at all. If I could take away the pain from everyone and it would make my life go force go quicker I would in a heartbeat. I know that is not what anyone would want to hear but that is the way I feel.
The pulsing, the headaches, the aches/pains of fibro are getting the best of me. It hurt to get out of bed this morning, but I did it. I had to clean the house with a lot of moaning and groaning due to the movements that i had to make while cleaning. But had to push through and that was the hardest part of it all.
Then to just keep myself from just stopping and not getting back up, I took my dog for a mile plus walk just to wear him out. And he is not the only one worn out. I\'m trying to keep myself in some sort of shape so I work out to the extent that I can. Think I overdid it, cause now I\'m barely moving. But still here due to the fact that I still feel the pain.
The depression has gotten bad but I don\'t go back to see the doctor for another couple of weeks....he wants me to see a therapist but my husband says that we\'ve been that route too many times and it didn\'t work then so why should it work now. This would be a different therapist than any Ive seen before, this is for stuff that happened way back when that I can\'t seem to leave behind and he doesn\'t understand that. So now, Im really wishing that I was not here. He would be soo much better off without me around and having to spend money on me to get me over all this mess as he refers to it. I\'m just ready for it to end,........the pain, the heartache, everything.
Thanks for listening and for being there so I can vent to someone. It is not easy to just keep it in, somehow it would come out and then it may not be in a good way. {{{HUGS}}} to all. Thank you.