What it called when Im starting to think be carful what to buy like example I love leopard print and dying to buy every thing leopard do my bathroom In it curtains rug decor but then I think when eventually I die then what my crap is someone's burdin to deal with clean up sell I dunno I think crap do I need this will I die if I never own a stupid flat screen that really ill prolly break when I get in my moods which is t hard to fall In, or maybe a fire or what , I ended up flooded when I was prego hmmm all the emotions there hmmm and well I been crazy since trim to sell shit or pay it forwar to ones in need y do I need it wake up a care seat I was gunna have for all my kids unknown I saved and got brand new but now relized it's expired and only been use for 2 kids like really common now and barly made it to the second actually all the stuff high chair play pen every thing is crap now like really y waist that money then I'm in a eeee place right now hate phone hate where I live scared to set up as perminant place cuz rental and I caint even let my kids play out side how creepy, starting to wonder if I'll ever be happy or even enjoy life I do but don't know y what's the point living on repeat , what does it mean to do good not bad we end up in a hole when we past right