Today not so much a good day I wanna take a shiny sharp blad to my wrists or even my neck , every day I just wanna die , the other day I actually told my mom I was hoping for 2012 to happen but wasn't lucky enough for it too , I wish I was crazy enough to take my own life and my daughter I want to end my pain and hers before hers starts I know it's only amater of time for her she's not even two yet this runs I the family and with ever dady is hers I know they all had depression crap so go figure gotta hate my life , even though I won't have the guts to end her life I know she will try to commute suidide when she's a teen I just have that feeling how to stop prolly never will even if I did take my pills