i went to a talking circle the other day at school for trying new things im usually a shy keep to my self type person latley anyways , and i actually said somthing not much but alil , and listening to the others i there was more i wanted to say after the fact so im gunna say it now . what i said so far is my name and im a single mother i am finding things are hard , and thats it but after listening to the others i wanted to add
a single mother of one , living with my parents , i struggle with depression i have since 14 , i use to be a cutter but i been free of that for two years but much like alchol and drugs it is addicting and i still want to every day but taking it one day at a time. about the last few times i have i was soo tempted to try cutting my neck not enough to die but enough to find out how it would feel, the thing that kepts me from that is how would i hide it . i was already having such a hard time keeping the rest hidden . i have tried to become a drunk i have tried drugs nothing helps me escape from this state of mind . for the rest theres detox but what is there when u just hate life and ur self that much u want out. im a prisoner in my own body, and when i come accross an intersection i just wanna run through it if a semi is comming . i want to loose weight but when i get there if im not happy still what do i do then