my journal , im so crazy lately i just feel like crying , most of the time, i think i love fience , sometimes its so hard to know if i do if i want to be with him forever, on valentines day he wanted to set a date with me but i pantected my heart stoped and its like if i loved him the way i should, it also could be that fact being center of attention scares the living f outa me so maybe im scared of being a bride but that thought just occured to me today looking at wedding stuff .
i wish i new my feelings its so hard to determine what i want or dont want , i told him about my thoughts , i dont just wanna end it , i need to know for sure because hes that great of a guy , if i pass this up what is up with me , i dont know what to doooo maybe ill feel better after i get in better shape and feel better about my self