Today

Well, today I saw my therapist and have him an update on how I have been feeling . I explained that I feel as though my life has been feeling like a " train wreck" due to being outta work, dealing with pain in my shoulder and knowing that I am " way over my head" in debt and trying to figure out how best to deal with it... Well for this very moment I am trying not to think about it. Since I am unsure of my income moving forward I really cannot deal with a consumer credit counseling service. I am supposed to go back to work in Monday and i have already been told of changes in
My job so that makes me very nervous. I am trying very hard to try to be positive and I have been trying to reach out to a few people that I would say are closest things to may do friends to try to get out if my apt . My apt is a mess and I desperately would like to attack it and hope to get some help . I plan tonight to attack the dining room area and dump a lot of unnecessary things. I did stop by a church that I visited Sunday and spoke to both the main pastor and associate pastor at which time I kinda broke down and asked for help. The associate pastor was very nice and caring but at the same time says how he/church is used to people looking for " bailout" but after I explained that I have started making some changes he said he acknowledges it. He invited me to come to their weekly Proverbs group that meets on Tuesday evenings. He also payed with me. I hope and prey that things will soon get better