Nightmares

Good Morning, I sleep for about 5 hours last night until a nightmare woke me up in sweats. I am trying very desperately to " keep it together" since it's really only me. As explained previously I am in debt " way over my head" and currently out if work. I am trying to get my apartment less cluttered and try to simplify my life. I am trying to get emotionally prepared for the dreaded " bill collector" calls starting next month. I am currently waiting outside my therapist office for a10am dr appt. I am just so upset with myself that my very good established good credit will be going down the drain.... I am also hoping and praying that they don't call me and harass me at work when I return. On another note, I had met up with an old childhood school mate and his wife about 3 weeks ago and wow it was the happiest time I can remember, we were supposed to meet up this weekend at their house and when I touched base last night Chris stated that he may have to work that day. I really am dissalpointed about that update.