Hello,
Just recently this week I got pap smear for yeast infection and found out Im a high risk for HPV with types 18 and 45 and low risk with type 6 and 11. For the last few days this had consume my thoughts causing great deal of stress and anxiety I cant eat eat or sleep. I am still battling with the yeast infection which now im thinking may it could be hiv or something worse, however the doctors encourage me thats not it. But now i have hpv so anything is possible right !!
I am full of so much regret, because I went against my family wishes, sin against GOD, and possibly ruin my life and future. All because I wanted to have sex, I wanted to be like the girls on sex and city, I wanted feel like a woman have my big Orgasms, I wanted a boyfriend so I gave up easily. I was stupid and naive and now there goes my health out the window.
I know doctors have been telling me not to be scared that will clear up on its own, but we dont know that for sure. Its just a chance ! I thought it was being so safe every time I even watch him to make sure he put on the condom correctly and right before I started having sex the doctor there was low chance of getting hpv as long I used protection.
Whats upset me that there is a chance
what i cant handle is that there is a chance
why i dislike myself is cause I cause this. I created this chance and now may I have ended my life already. I am so mad at myself and I dont know how to move forward with my life. Just ignore this pretended like it another happen until the next 6 months when i have get another pap smear or till a wart show up. How long did take did it take for anyone to get a wart or cancer if may ask ?
Just recently this week I got pap smear for yeast infection and found out Im a high risk for HPV with types 18 and 45 and low risk with type 6 and 11. For the last few days this had consume my thoughts causing great deal of stress and anxiety I cant eat eat or sleep. I am still battling with the yeast infection which now im thinking may it could be hiv or something worse, however the doctors encourage me thats not it. But now i have hpv so anything is possible right !!
I am full of so much regret, because I went against my family wishes, sin against GOD, and possibly ruin my life and future. All because I wanted to have sex, I wanted to be like the girls on sex and city, I wanted feel like a woman have my big Orgasms, I wanted a boyfriend so I gave up easily. I was stupid and naive and now there goes my health out the window.
I know doctors have been telling me not to be scared that will clear up on its own, but we dont know that for sure. Its just a chance ! I thought it was being so safe every time I even watch him to make sure he put on the condom correctly and right before I started having sex the doctor there was low chance of getting hpv as long I used protection.
Whats upset me that there is a chance
what i cant handle is that there is a chance
why i dislike myself is cause I cause this. I created this chance and now may I have ended my life already. I am so mad at myself and I dont know how to move forward with my life. Just ignore this pretended like it another happen until the next 6 months when i have get another pap smear or till a wart show up. How long did take did it take for anyone to get a wart or cancer if may ask ?
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