Things are starting to get a little better for me. I thought a building contractor, who is remodeling my basement, was giving me the "run around". He would have people show up and work for a day or two, but then I wouldn't see anybody there for a few days. The project is in the finishing stages, so that will be one less thing to worry about.

I really want to send my son to the early childhood special education program, but I am a little worried it may be a little premature. He will only be a few months from his 3rd birthday, but they would be willing to take him at the beginning of the school year. My early intervention specialist isn't sure of the format, whether it be every day or half days for a few days a week. She said that my son is progressing so well by the care my wife and I are giving him at home that sending him there this early and this much may not be in my son's best interest. Half days for two to three days a week would definitely work for the structure and routine, but she said he still needs to spend as much time home as possible. I took that as a compliment for all the time I've spent working with my son. I'm also a little nervous because I've never had to rely on anybody else to teach my son anything. I tend to agree with the early interventionist, mainly because I would miss my son if he were gone so much. And I think my son has taught me as much (maybe more) as I've taught him. It's amazing the things you learn after becoming a parent, especially the parent of a special needs child. I constantly tell my son that he is the best teacher I've ever had, and I say it with the utmost sincerity.

I also think that children have some sort of intuition when it comes to their parents' feelings. A few days ago, I was having an emotionally negative day. My son came up to me, kissed me on the cheek and said, "I wuv you." I've got him to say "I wuv you" before, but it was while prompting it with a song that ended with those words. I will take those words any way I can get them, but when he did it unprompted, combined with a kiss on the cheek, instantly made my day better and made me realize that no matter how negative and sad I feel, I still have my son to brighten up my day.