Oh am I ever having a gruesome day! :( My oldest grandson is so jealous of his little brother, I try talking to him to no avail, I can't keep my eyes on the boys 24/7, its to hard on me, then my kid goes off on me when the older one does a dumb thing to his brother, he poured baby powder on him, every thing is my fault, thats all I ever hear, its your fault, dam it then find a dam baby sitter, its so funny they come in and the 2 of them have a frustrating time handling the boys, and their 2 and half my age.I want to do some thing for me, myself, and I, how can I, the government steals from the poor and gives to the rich, I can't afford even housing on my wages, I have tried over and over again to find a spot I could call home "SWEET" home. "NOT", yeh I could have a roof, but no food, and no phone, and then worry about a few bills I try to keep up with.School is my dream yet, but it has to be on-line, I have no privacy here what so ever, the boys are always around me, tonight I pretended to be asleep, hid under a blanket, just to get some peace of mind. I want to just crawl under a rock some where and hide. Life is handed to you, its not what you make it, I did not ask to become so darn ill, I did not tell my heart who to love, and I surely hate being dependent on others for my keep.                                              Just Me!