Its 01/20/2008, 2:45am, yes thats correct, middle of the night, maybe its this new anti-biotic keeping me awake, but had a earlier cat nap, Freddy called earlier, put my kid on the phone, just really had nothing to say, plus he woke me up out of my cat-nap, at times what is there really to say, this is horrible these mixed emotions. Plus the darn phone kept cutting in and out, GTL needs to get their act together.

Baby A is gone as usuall on the week-ends, Baby E and I are considered the "BLACKSHEEPS" I guess, we are usually stuck here, but tonight he went to a B-Day party with his mother, oh yeh, she took him some where. She is so materialistic, that I give her, but only at times when it comes to the boys, its only name brand, she thinks she is rich. Far from it! :(

1:00am, on /in this roddy neighborhood 5 gun shoots ring out, must of been close, sirens, police, bothers me, but doesn't, don't fear to easy, mind my own bee's wax, it will be in the news, some one always gets killed here in this area. They fight over teritory I guess, ok, I'm judging, so stupid, is it really worth it?

Going to try to sleep, getting conjested, night-night journal!

                                                     Just Me!