There I smiled! Wow that was hard. Life is hard for me, I don't want to mahe excusses, I try not to. The answer to one question is, "I SLEEP IN THE DINNING ROOM AREA" GRRRRRRRR! No privacy, there is no dining room furniture, just a dresser, my computer, a old bed my oldest grandson usually sleeps on, and my bed a rycliner chair with my legs proped up on my wobbly computer chair. I had a nice home at one time, now there is 5 of us in a one bedroom, of course my daughter sleeps with her man, so they have the room with the only door, half the time he sleeps on the couch cause the younger one sleeps in their room. She makes me laugh at times, she will say she feels like the house pet cause she lands smooshed up at the feet of the bed.

I can not focus now because of all the medications, the one I used to take kept me semi alert, now I am not focused that much, not alert, and in chronic pain, but the worse is "NO PRIVACY" the boys are young tots, and far from being angels. The medications are horrible, don't help much, In order to study I need a little alone time, once and if we can find a house, hopefully I'll have my own room, then we will see what gives????? I still have the youngest during the day, and the older on gets off the bus at 230pm-245pm, its so small here the boys are usually back with me unless I get lucky, they will not play or watch tv in the bedroom unless some one is in there. NO! School will just have to wait, I can't really go out, so it has to be on-line again.

Cesar called, thats laughing and joking, Freddy called thats serious conversations, but at least they both call. Freddy and , I don't want more then a friendship, I'm not sure what he wants, cause we don't see each other who knows? Just going with the flow for now.

                                                                                                              Just Me!