I guess I'm ok with the decision I made about my Freddy? Just ok, I'm tired of him snarling at me, he needs to act his age, its the darn lies, I can no longer deal with his lies, and especially his reverse physchology, he drives me crazy with the reverse role playing. I'll be his friend if that is what he wants, who knows, I'm not crying that much, so thats a plus, he is showing me his true colors by not calling over X-Mas, I'll live, I have way to many other things in my mind, especially my health, being in a over abudance of pain in the mornings, not being able to walk through 2 rooms, watching 2 crazy toddlers, nah, he is just not worth the tiny-tiny bit of energy I may have left in me. He needs to come to his senses.
Elias is sleeping with his dad, mom went out with the girls, Baby A is with his Godparents, and Grandma is free to be on her computer,,,,,yippie!
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wow...you go girl...
Good for you! Take some time for you! You have helped me out lots and lots. For that I thank you!
Well, the fact that you guess you are ok with the choice you have made leaves me to believe your not ready to let go. Maybe you just need to let him stew a little bit for a while. I know you do a lot for him and now he wants to sell your ring????? Come on now thats a little to much to handle. Maybe a little silent treatment for a while may make him understand how much that hurt you. I dont know what do you think.
I think that your health should come first and foremost in your life, because if you don\'t take care of yourself, you Won\'t be around to see those little grandchildren of yours grow up. You are way too young to deal with the problems that you have to deal with. It breaks my heart that you are so ill and still have to deal with an a**! Do you watch the toddlers every day? I know you must love it, but it\'s got to be a drain on your strength. You should take the time to take care of yourself. I know how difficult it is to think about yourself when there are so many other people in your life that need help, but it is imperative to your entire family that you do just that. Please let me know if there is something that I can do.
I know its not easy to listen to the psycho babble- it makes me wonder sometimes if they teach each other in there to do that to us. We reach a point in our lives that we just don\'t want to hear it anymore. Only your heart can tell you what to do- anyone on the outside is so easy to say \"dump him.\" There is so much we can take before our minds and our hearts blend together to make a decision- we know there\'s no turning back on it either. Marc was just telling me of a class he took part of. They taught him of the alements their significant others go through physically when this stuff happens... back pains, headaches, depression, eating disorders, and a whole list of other stuff. What they do is a direct result on us physically- stress levels up the wazzoo... Sometimes they don\'t realize what they put us through til its smacking them in the face. Sometimes you have to ask yourself, \"Is it worth it?\" Yes, you go on... No, you know what you have to do. Wish I could help ease your pain, for now- enjoy your peace. oxox, Amy
P.S. I may be off for a few days and I\'ll be back as soon as I can- I\'m going to message you my number if you need me before I return, please feel free to call me and hope everythings okay. oxox