Still cold and drerry outside, just as I am feeling inside, can't wait untill these dumb Holidays are over with. I always see my moms face dying in the hospital on Thanksgiving morning, started at 3:00am, well Black friday actually, her memory does not fade away, I wonder why it just will not fade away, maybe its because of the way she looked at me. She would not eat the meal I brought her, and all she said to me was that she was "COLD THAT NIGHT " in the hospital. I think she had conjested heart failure once again, I'll never know, the hospital had her sign a paper not to ever drain her lungs again while she was not with it mentally, and there was nothing at that time I could do about it.

I had to let her go, she suffered from September the 1st-November 26th, on Black friday she died. Let me change this subject. Boys are both home, don't know why my daughter left her oldest home today, if this apartment was bigger it might help, but its way to small, and the older one does not nap here, although he naps in head start. Can't stay here much longer the 3 year old is advanced, he wants his ABC's games, more latter.

                                                      Lynn