hugs, I am still struggling with hip and muscle tone issues all related to the tbi. I am coping with trying to knit and crochet. I did have two glorious weeks; my energy was up , meds keep the pain under and I felt like a kite flying in the wind. but the hips slipped around and the muscles contracted with a vengeance. But even so my heart belongs to God.
It is rainy rainy today. the warm spell made my iris think it is time to bud and bloom. They may all boom out before the iris show the end of this month. It is delightful to see what is blooming each morning.
Today though I woke up sad and mad about this tbi life. I want to go to a couple of place and I can not drive and everyone is busy. It is raining and i am so tried of the rain. we had a warm spell and the iries thought it was time to bud up and start blooming; just a bit too early. They may all bloom out before the iris show at the end of the month and i may have nothing to enter.
I am with anxiety too, that means i am likely hurting more than i realize. You know how it is you drag around, coping with the pain, the stupid brain messyness. I burnt breakfast this moring; there is a reason i am not suppose to cook with out supervision. I mean i understand but i want to cook some french toast; right in the middle of cooking it .. i think i need to send an email and i forget i am cooking and walk off to go email a note to a friend and then i smell something burning... the french toast... Go to the kitchen and turn off the stove top and toss the burnt breakfast. So put out with myself.
I just want to get in the car and go browse and window shop and putter around some junk shops looking for cool items. I do not mind being at home but even I need time out and about! rumbles of thunder.
I want to make some silk tie dyed eggs that i saw , really cool. I saw some ties for sale at a junk shop but did not buy them and no one wants to go to the junk shop any time soon; i should have bought them. I need to work on stain glass but can not motivate myself to do so; i just want to sit and knit.
I have had painful neruo pain in my legs and now it seems to be attacking my hands; I am overwhelmed and discourage. Seems some of the meds are also causing weight gain and i am hungry all the time too, and i do not want to diet or excerzie; my cloths are tight and uncomfortable. I am so tired of this. and becasue i could not walk on my treadmill safely we had it put in storage and I bought a stationary recumbent bike; the bike is great but i have quit biking. I just want to sit and knit or crochet.
I am so discouraged that i can not motivate myself.
My husband wanted to by a cool car , and old mustang but he realized that it would be too great a strain on our budget; and so he did not get it; and he is disappointed. I feel sad with him.
I want a better life than this but this is what i am stuck with. You know I try to make the best of it and work hard to improve my brain and find things to enjoy. I am just having one of those having to struggle too much and it is getting me down.
The rain is stressing me out because it could mess up my irises. I wish i had bought those silk ties at the junk shop and i can not drive. I do not want to be at the house today ; i want to just go window shopping and look for bargains . and the pain in my arms is scaring me.
Ok i need to go and do something to deal with this day. I have a bible study i need to work on and i have a prayer shawl i need to finish for a dear friend how is having an inflamed pancreas. Please pray for JW she is very sick.
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hugs, I am still struggling with hip and muscle tone issues all related to the tbi. I am coping with trying to knit and crochet. I did have two glorious weeks; my energy was up , meds keep the pain under and I felt like a kite flying in the wind. but the hips slipped around and the muscles contracted with a vengeance. But even so my heart belongs to God.
It is rainy rainy today. the warm spell made my iris think it is time to bud and bloom. They may all boom out before the iris show the end of this month. It is delightful to see what is blooming each morning.
Today though I woke up sad and mad about this tbi life. I want to go to a couple of place and I can not drive and everyone is busy. It is raining and i am so tried of the rain. we had a warm spell and the iries thought it was time to bud up and start blooming; just a bit too early. They may all bloom out before the iris show at the end of the month and i may have nothing to enter.
I am with anxiety too, that means i am likely hurting more than i realize. You know how it is you drag around, coping with the pain, the stupid brain messyness. I burnt breakfast this moring; there is a reason i am not suppose to cook with out supervision. I mean i understand but i want to cook some french toast; right in the middle of cooking it .. i think i need to send an email and i forget i am cooking and walk off to go email a note to a friend and then i smell something burning... the french toast... Go to the kitchen and turn off the stove top and toss the burnt breakfast. So put out with myself.
I just want to get in the car and go browse and window shop and putter around some junk shops looking for cool items. I do not mind being at home but even I need time out and about! rumbles of thunder.
I want to make some silk tie dyed eggs that i saw , really cool. I saw some ties for sale at a junk shop but did not buy them and no one wants to go to the junk shop any time soon; i should have bought them. I need to work on stain glass but can not motivate myself to do so; i just want to sit and knit.
I have had painful neruo pain in my legs and now it seems to be attacking my hands; I am overwhelmed and discourage. Seems some of the meds are also causing weight gain and i am hungry all the time too, and i do not want to diet or excerzie; my cloths are tight and uncomfortable. I am so tired of this. and becasue i could not walk on my treadmill safely we had it put in storage and I bought a stationary recumbent bike; the bike is great but i have quit biking. I just want to sit and knit or crochet.
I am so discouraged that i can not motivate myself.
My husband wanted to by a cool car , and old mustang but he realized that it would be too great a strain on our budget; and so he did not get it; and he is disappointed. I feel sad with him.
I want a better life than this but this is what i am stuck with. You know I try to make the best of it and work hard to improve my brain and find things to enjoy. I am just having one of those having to struggle too much and it is getting me down.
The rain is stressing me out because it could mess up my irises. I wish i had bought those silk ties at the junk shop and i can not drive. I do not want to be at the house today ; i want to just go window shopping and look for bargains . and the pain in my arms is scaring me.
Ok i need to go and do something to deal with this day. I have a bible study i need to work on and i have a prayer shawl i need to finish for a dear friend how is having an inflamed pancreas. Please pray for JW she is very sick.
hugs and love, happy chi