I have started rereading 'the Artist Way' . It has already given me strength to cope. I have also stopped eating chocolate to see if that might help. Now my only comfort food/beverage is decafe coffee with a dash of milk. I knitted a little today. I studyed pictures of butterflies and looked at photos trying to make some identifications. I have studyed star charts but it is not helping much. I can not see enough to find my way about the constellations in the night sky; and I seem to have trouble remembering.
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Just some coffee? That is it? You need to treat yourself a bit better.
Coffee huh, how about a cookie to go with it. Doesn\'t have to be chocolate. Maybe one of those fancy ones, Milan or something like that I think.
I know what you mean about the coffee. The only comfort food left. I cheated and had chocolate last night and now I am going to pay for it. Never forget that you are in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs and love.
Thank you guys so much. Tonight is a little ... okay ALOT rough. the pain nero pain in my legs has been braking trough the Lyrica all day. I went to the chiropractor today and had a bit of relieaf but not as helpful today as it has been. Tonight the hatefull pain is fighting hard at me. OH LORD. Jim told me straight about nero pain. I appreciate that. OH GRACE I pray for all of us. I had a few days were my brain was clear and I was able to be organized in my thoughts and had a good day or two... and then today the brain slide to brain fade mists in and I am engulfed in the tbi. My husband noted it to me that he could see the change happening. Please pray for me. My legs have been awelful again. I have had a few days of clean brain but this eveing.. and Don took note of it to me:... I am sliding in to brain fade as it is called on the support boards. I call it brain changes.
But it is like standing outside a mirror and watching yourself be pulled inside it and then you are there and not there.. and life is strange an d fluid on the other side of the mirror and it is a trap.. that is hard to walk back through... the surface becomes solid and traps .. and i will work hard to walk out of the brain fade and be closer to normal.
I am struggling to do the Artist way .. i am practicing some of it but not strictly and orderly like before. I did have artist dates this day. two. i can remember one of them was to buy mums. to sit with the pumpkin. oh i bough nail growth avon.
Having brain changes and neurological pain.
my thoughs are like this.... ho\'w ar e yuo... medicated. and pain, an d trying to
make fragments come to gether
that is is it... my brain is fragmenting
words come together and seperate at the worng places
letters in the worng places
wrong
why would not eating chocolate helpt the brain?