Thursday, February 28, 2008
It has not been a good week. For that matter it has not been a good couple of weeks; but I keep thinking oh things will get better. Today things are the pits. I have been physically weak and today it tiplafied to the worst. Art supplies arrived today; i opened the box and checked what was inside and then set the box away and hope to paint another day. My arms and legs are like lead. I do not understand why moving is so hard. I read about an artist Frida Kahlo and cryed through the gallery of her paintings. Oh mercy I understood all to well the pain she painted. I tried to paint my own self portrat of pain today. My nose is not the correct shape. When the painting drys i will work some more on it; when i do not know. Hopefully I can correct the nose. But the yellow skin looks sick and I will paint a red background. I have three other self portraits i started on a day I felt well but have not been well enough to finish them. I am so upset to have lived to live like this.
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You will start feeling better soon. You have a strong will....a very positive outlook and a big heart.
JUST KEEP PUSHING. I DO, BUT I REST OFTEN. I TAKE AN AFTERNOON NAP DAILY. USUALLY I WAKE UP AND HAVE A GOOD HOUR OR 2.
my prayers are with I now how you feel just take one day at a time. I hope you have a good weekend
Don\'t give up on yourself. Give yourself time, you will feel better about it all soon. And in my opinion, which doesn\'t really mean anything in this case, you should just keep that painting as it is, and date it. - it represents how you felt and your abilities at the time. Then start a new one. Your paintings are a journal in themselves. I bet you will be able to see not only the improvements in your artwork, but the art work will show you your improvements Even if you don\'t see it yourself.
Thanks for the support. I am not doing well. I may not be as active on DS for a little bit. I went to the dr. this morning and they did blood work. Results will be next week. The waiting is awful. I Feel very weak and not able to do much. So frustrated and not feeling well makes for tears off and on.