My Gramie died this morning.  She fell last week crushing her eyesocket causing bleeding in the brain.  It has been tough on the family to see another brain injury and this one did not turn out the way family would have hoped.  We were not ready for her to die.  This is my first major family death; i am so heart broken.   I am so glad I got to spend time with my gramie and that i have her legacy and gifts that she bestowed on me of crocheting prayer shawls, caps and houseshoes we call booties. I have not been well and having to deal with pain and stressing out because of the pain.  I do not know what to do; the drs are useless to find prevenative care.  I have also had a moderate brain change.  Moderate in that it was not overly stormy like the last one.  My eyes site is jittery, blurry and colors are monotoned and muted.  the changes are notable in my recent paintings.  I might take this more in stried if i were not in phyisical pain.  This is just nuts; i know many of you understand this and my pain is not near what some of you guys deal with.   I will try to post soon some new paintings but right now i am doing the best i can from moment to moment. I and my family will be in mourning for a bit; we have lost our patriarc.  I think there is spell check here but i can never figure out wher it is! Just frustrates me to no ends.  Where is the spell check?  I have taken a break for the roses till things settle emotionally and with my brain changes.  I am practicing the "forever'" symbol and painting sea scapes of a sandy beach and waves rolling in at low tide....Please pray for me and my family. thank you bunches.