Top of the day to you.  You know I am usually upbeat; but i have my limits of endurance to the weight of unfortunate events.  

 I will just tell you up front I am going to be grippy.  I am just going to pour out and maybe that will helpp release me from some of the things that are bugging me. 

 And why do we not have spell check here? grip. 

I ran out of rhinestones for an art project.  Then I ran out of dark navy paper.  Then my paper cutter blade is so dull it rages the paper and I do not want ragged edges for this particular art project I called "dark skies". 

It is those little things that can robe our energy.  Something as simple as the need for paper, a new paper cutter, and sticky back rhinestones.   I am doing without various things; we all do.  And then we get to a point of neglect of our child's soul and we just wonder why we have no energy and live has not luster.    So I finally was able to get to the store and I bought the sticky back rhinestones i wanted.  But I can stores are no longer carring the cutter blades that go to my paper cutter.    We looked on line.  So I am going to have to buy a new paper cutter.  Anoyyed.  

 So my art project is on hold.  

I find rides to various places to get some of the stuff I want.  But i still do not have a paper cutter. One of the places I get a ride to is the paper store where I can use their equipment to cut my paper. (one of the niceties of having bought the paper there)  But thier paper cutter is different than my simple one.  The paper is not cut quite to the right size; and this is very very very important!!!  I am not a perfectionist.  But the post cards have to be the right sizes for two reasons... one to be a post card and the other is so they fit in the plasic protective sleeves that I put my precious ,valuble, collectable art in. 

I finaly have cut paper stripes to weave into post cards for my dark sky Draco post cards.  I have the prototype made but I did not pay enough attention to it when i made 4 suposidly duplicates.  I wove the pattern in the wrong direction.  Half a days work and I can not use them for Draco.  sigh and a bit mad.  But not all is lost; i will use the post cards for some other design project.

But I need more paper and I still need a paper cutter.  I just want to do this project.  It is such a cool fun idea.   And I bought plenty of sticky back rhinestones to assure I would have more than enough to play and play.

Okay what eale am I ticked about:::  I am fighting yeast!  I know the brain stuff makes us tried but I was/a, feeling worse... WELL I broke out in a yeast infection mess; probably been brewing.  I have been on and off antibiotics now for two years which kills the good biotic in the stomack.   I try to eat plan yogart; but that gets tiresome. 

The yeast infection is all over my face and scalp, gut and other places.  My face, scalp look like a layer of skin died; white and dry.  I have been treatting it will olive oil and Bert's Bees Vit. E oils.   I am now on a more serious regement of Yeast Fighters by TwinLab and Grapefruit Seed Extract.  (Do not ever take Grapefruit Seed Extract streigt; mix one of two drops in very strong flavored water!)

I am working on plastic canvas crosses and ran out of yarn pale yellow yarn. (I just can not jump in the car and go get more!!! frown and anoyed.   A friend gave me a skein of pale yellow yarn but it is thin and stretch; I do not like working with it.  I doubled two strans but what a pain.  I hope to go to the store soon and buy something better to work with.  

My forhead is crenckled with stress.  I may have to go back to wearing bangs.   Too bad the dr. that did my brain surgery did not do a little face lift at the same time.   

Then there is the barking dogs. I will just leave it at that. same ole same. I need sleep and undestubed.   And why do we not have spell check here. so annoyed. 

And then there is our own half a cat Precious Catsue.  She is half there and a pain to cope with. I am too sick to have to put up with her.  

I need chocolate!

Thanks for listening.  I'll be fine.  Just piles of life and not much resolve with some of them is really getting to me.