I have not had a good couple of days. Mostly stressed out from not being able to drive and needing to take care of some important business. I am very grouchy to be around; I have made sure my husband knows how i feel and why. lol Trying to keep humor along with all this mess. It is hard for me to emotionally move on to taking on the day when there is stuff pressing that Needs to taken care of in a timily manner. I really wish we had public tranportation. In a few months I will qualify for a program that will drive me to my dr. visits but that does not help me now. So agrivated, furstrated, fuming mad. It is also hard to paint when I am upset or mad because those emotions come out in my paintings. Which can be fine if I want an emotionally charged painting; but the series I am working on right now "fragrant fields" I want them to be calm not full of my momentary being upset. Perhaps I will paint some irises; they can be emotional with what has me upset. I am also mad about my car ruining. It has not been driven and thus has sat in the driveway and has ruined. The lack of use has caused the car to deteriate. One of many issues being electical issues and the break fluid line broke. The break fluid stained and erroded places on the concrete. I am not sleeping well this week.
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I am steel going through that stage too. When I wanted to go some place I just jumped in my car and went. Now I have to ask someone to take me. Its hard I went into depression too. Then I said to my I will drive again but it is going to be awhile . I am learning to change as needed to get through this. I have to have a postive atertude. I can\'t change it over night. Time will come I still learning to have patience. the day i get my patience back. I am going to through a party . We have to think postive and I know its hard to do. Stay strong I know it\'s not easy. especherley when people around don\'t understand they say they do until you have gone through it you don\'t. here is a big hug for you. I know that you need it.
Let your art come out of you. Don\'t try to force yourself to paint something you aren\'t feeling. The way you put a piece of yourself into your paintings is what makes them so very good.