I really try to stay on an even kiln but it is that time of the month and I am just in so much pain with the cramps.  I have meds that are only dulling the pain.  I am about to go nuts.  I am also still dealing with the last brain change and have not been able to regain eye and hand control.  I painted at least four large pages of paper this morning just practicing painting a fragrant grass patch over and over trying to make flowing smooth strokes.    I mailed out a dozen paintings yesterday morning and have another dozen waiting to be painted and mailed.  I have a list of stuff that needs to be done and a list of stuff I want to do... all on hold again.  So tired of this life on hold.  Shake my fist and scrwol my eyebows to the heavens.  You would think i would learn my leason about wrestling with God. hahahhaaa  Thanks for listening and caring; I feel a relief better already.