well here in the uk it's saturday, and the deppression that has been threatning for weeks is hitting me, again, i try to hit back, but in the end it always seems to get the last punch.my sitiation has changed from the other week, i no longer have to have a stranger in my home,my support worker and my key worker for once listened to me, i have lost a little bit of support through this,,as now i will only have my support three times instead of four times amonth,but at least i can cope with this now, i think it is all the stress that coused me to feel like i am now, also lots of things comming up in my counciling sessions, that trigger oter things, that then trigger more things and so it goes on, and i am still supposed to be ok and be normal, and cope with life,becouse no one sees the pain or deppression.i seem to always fall to this place, it is so annoying,i should be used to it now,and should see it comming, and prepare myself, but guess what even after all these years of struggling, i still do not see the signs, or prohaps i do but i ignore them,strange person  that i am.I think i have been in a dream world the past few weeks, and suddnly realised how close to Christmas we are,even though we have been practicing our christmas puppets perfermance for weeks now, oh no help, i had better start sorting out presants,and things,but prohaps not today.lolany way thats enough for today.