started of a good day today,but when my keyworker come i talked to her about the changes that are happing with my support worker, i don't cope with change and things seemed so settled with leslie, now they want her to do once every two weeks and bring someone else in on the other week, i don't wont this, but i have no choise,other wise i will have no support, they have done it to me again,i don,t cope with hardly anyone in my flat and now i have to have another stranger that i have to deal with another person who will have to learn about me and all the things that go with my life, without it being my choise, i will have to trust them ,even when i don't know them ,with going out and they will have to learn how i cope and how i don't, and i will become another experiment and i won't be able to say anything on how i feel becouse all you get is well they are trying, and you have to give it time, so you can't say anything about how invasive this feels, and how i don't wont this to happen again how i can't cope with it,i'm just learning to trust leslie, and it takes me along time,it's no ones fault soi can't say a word,  it has happened so many times and for so long, and i have had enough of it, i don't wont to be an experiment any more, i wont to feel sare and valued, not just a number, where others make the disissions and i end up with the cosequenses, sorry just venting, aargh, that feels better.