Can't Sleep
Wayne and I will be celebrating 20 years together at the end of this coming week. At first I had a moment of excitement...you know...the WOW...I have been sleeping with the same guy for 20 years...who would have thunk it??? But my humor soon faded...the tears came and it took me away for few minutes...remembering once again why our wedding was so very special in so many ways.
Wayne and I met quite accidentally through a few mutual friends...he asked me to marry him the exact same day we had met, only one year later...He has asked the girls first if he could "Pop the question"...the girls were elated and of course so was I...But I did make him wait for another three years before I actually walked down the isle with him...I had my reasons, none of which I can recall now...
I have the wedding tape cued up and ready to watch again,,,and MayLyn and Alexsis are right there beside me while the preacher says all those lovely words about devotion and love forever and ever...till death do we part...
That I figure is where the tesrs came in...the memory of...
As I looked into his eyes and said "I do" ...then there was a total pause....as Wayne pulled from his vest two solid gold bands....I was confused to say the least but I trusted him completely...as I watched Wayne and the preacher exchanged nods with each other and the preacher began again with words of...protect you with my life...love you like my own...through the good and the bad...forever and ever. Wayne had those two gold bands blessed and he put one on each of the girls right ring finger...blew me completely away..I was for the first time in my life at a loss for words.
The only thing my husband said while we stood at the side of MayLyn;s ciffin was "Oh God forgive me, I promised to protect her". It hit me so hard this morning I have been crying constantly...cannot stop...I will go to sleep this morning in his arms crying and I promise it won't be for the for time nor that last time. I am just upset because I had never put those two events together before...and when I did it crushed me once again...how his heart was broken that day too...and I was so blind with sadness,,,I never saw it. I know he loves me and the girls so much...Thank you God for the gift of Wayne...my rock...my hero...my salvation.
Good night sweet ladies....
Walking beside you always...
Jacqueline PLH
P.S. MayMay....20 years girlfriend....amazing...miss you so much right now..Love Mom
Wayne and I met quite accidentally through a few mutual friends...he asked me to marry him the exact same day we had met, only one year later...He has asked the girls first if he could "Pop the question"...the girls were elated and of course so was I...But I did make him wait for another three years before I actually walked down the isle with him...I had my reasons, none of which I can recall now...
I have the wedding tape cued up and ready to watch again,,,and MayLyn and Alexsis are right there beside me while the preacher says all those lovely words about devotion and love forever and ever...till death do we part...
That I figure is where the tesrs came in...the memory of...
As I looked into his eyes and said "I do" ...then there was a total pause....as Wayne pulled from his vest two solid gold bands....I was confused to say the least but I trusted him completely...as I watched Wayne and the preacher exchanged nods with each other and the preacher began again with words of...protect you with my life...love you like my own...through the good and the bad...forever and ever. Wayne had those two gold bands blessed and he put one on each of the girls right ring finger...blew me completely away..I was for the first time in my life at a loss for words.
The only thing my husband said while we stood at the side of MayLyn;s ciffin was "Oh God forgive me, I promised to protect her". It hit me so hard this morning I have been crying constantly...cannot stop...I will go to sleep this morning in his arms crying and I promise it won't be for the for time nor that last time. I am just upset because I had never put those two events together before...and when I did it crushed me once again...how his heart was broken that day too...and I was so blind with sadness,,,I never saw it. I know he loves me and the girls so much...Thank you God for the gift of Wayne...my rock...my hero...my salvation.
Good night sweet ladies....
Walking beside you always...
Jacqueline PLH
P.S. MayMay....20 years girlfriend....amazing...miss you so much right now..Love Mom
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