Yes, I light my candle today...

I miss you my sweet Daughter, as do all of the Moms around the world today miss their babies that were taken from us too soon.

I know I am blessed to have such a caring and loving family here and at home, but I am alas a vey selfish woman my girl.

I want all the laughter and the smiles and the planning for the holidays and the cooking and the gift giving and just the miracle of bringing together our small family. You always had the knack for doing that, and I miss it. Now I do my best to run from it instead of embracing it, and for that I apologize.

For every month of the year that I miss you, I cry everyday of the month in December baby girl. I remember how you loved all the birthdays and the Holidays so much. You planned your whole year around this month and without you for the most part I feel empty and cold inside.

We were not made from the same cloth although you came from me and I don't have a clue as how to make this the best time of the year for anyone. I pray I figure it out soon, before your babies know whats up with me.

I miss you sweets, wish you were here to make my heart feel whole again. I will do my best, I promise you this much, but have patience with me and help me to let go of this pain so I can make it right for the kids.

Momma loves you BabyGirl.

PLH