The huge amount of healing that I have experienced since I have come to DS is unmeasurable as I am sure it is for so many of us. Women sitting on the outskirts of life with no one to help them through this horrible journey in life. So alone and scared and fretful of the everyay things and the not so everyday things.I have such vivid nightmarish thoughts about how I am petrified of losing my other daughter. I hear stories like "Sorrow's" and my heart falls out of my chest and I cannot breath! Life is not fair. It is cruel! and we have all eaten a piece of that pie. I know my fears are not founded in my reality, but they could be..no? I still have them, and I would just about bet that some or a lot of the other Mother's have them also. So how do we get though this emotion? Please tell me how do we get by watching some one who has lost two babies an we have lived through the loss of one already try to cope?Am I crazy? Should sorrow not be insane with grief and totally unwound? I have no answers and I am so moved emotionally. I cannot even imagine what she is going through, or her family.I just wanted to share one of my greatest fears out loud and I hope with the strength of everyone's love here we can fend this off somehow, even if it is in our own minds.I end with how much I dearly miss my MayLyn's smile an her loving nature.I blow a kiss to heavens for all the babies lost.Love Jacqueline PLH MayLyn's Momma